August 5, 2013

Spinning In Control: a checklist for surviving domestic abuse, defined by a jump ~ from out of this world


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On October 14, 2012, Austrian skydiver, Felix Baumgartner, jumped from outer space. He traveled 24 miles at  Mach 1.25 speed (843.6 mph), and landed safely on earth.   That smile seen worldwide, behind his helmet dome, was one that triumphs human spirit, with achievement of life goals.

He stands here above, on his own two feet, after an episode of spinning out of control.
'In that situation, when you spin around, it's like hell and you don't know if you can get out of that spin or not,' he said. 

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Yet, he did!  News commentators noted small angle changes his body was making to counter that spin, to regain control.  The collective heart of the world skipped a beat; we held our breath, as this skilled skydiver piloted his body to the safety of our atmosphere and solid ground. 

What did Mr. Baumgartner have at his side to help him counter that ‘death spin’?  What was he able to manipulate or change to redirect his course, to save his life?  What did he consistently have control of throughout the experience?

The answers to these questions could be lifesaving to yourself or a loved one if you ever found yourself: ‘spinning out of control’. 

Let me preface these words with the assurance, that I am not a professional, in any advising capacity, but I have faced the earth, and all it holds, at what seemed to be a Mach 1.25 speed of spinning decent.  The same questions could have been applied to me.  What did I have at my side to counter a ‘death spin’?  What was I able to manipulate or change to redirect a course, to save my life?  What did I consistently have control of throughout the experience?

A wedding day, or relationship entwined, may be followed by the constricting slow changes of an abusive mate.  Unfortunately, this type of connection is not limited to the heterosexual home life. Many LBGT couples have encountered the same dangerous outcomes of abusive behaviors.  Regardless of who is being faced with this threat, what does one do, mirroring Mr. Baumgartner’s expertise, to stop the ‘death spin’?
First let’s answer the last question.

What does one consistently have control of throughout the experience?

The answer was given to me by my Yoga instructor, Nick Montoya, creator of Ageless Yoga:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G6hBIE7QCHs  ( Nick Montoya’s story) 

your breath  

It is yours to hold, take in deep, blow out a candle or make a sea sound.  It is a center, a core strengthener, a spine solidifier as you stand up, a little taller.  Many times in the plummet of an overly controlling and abusive relationship, your breath may be all you have.  Abusive mates in their cycle of abuse, will keep you, (they feel), powerless by restricting possessions or contacts, and then spin you with honeymoon attention. 


My breath was all I had at times when a yelling, spitting in my face scream owned all I knew, and cut off those I loved.  Or, so I thought.  In a downward spin, it is hard to take the time to access direction, for it feels as if you have none.

What you do not have is: control over another person.  You cannot change them.  You can only change yourself.  Do not waste precious breath trying to argue a won point.  You will need your breath. Breathe it in deeper for strength, the strength you will need to get out of this ‘death spin’.

Here is where we go to the second question.

What do I have at my side to counter a ‘death spin’?   What did Felix Baumgartner have?

Did a big screen TV help him, a bank account? How about a brand new car?  Things do not help you when you are trying to re-enter atmosphere, your will does.  Your iron clad will, your stainless steel sense to survive.  It’s genetic.  It’s a code in each cell.  Hold your breath and see.  You use your first tool, your breath, to paddle your will to survive. If it is held long enough, you will gulp more of that lifesaving substance deep.  You have an inherent, built in survival mode.  Do not let depression, or the numbing qualities of substance abuse, slow that down.  Take in the free air no abusive mate can control.  Let your will, even if you are spinning head over heels, fill you. Make each cell and their orbiting electrons inside you, strong.  You can redirect.  You can apply the life skills you have, not a big screen TV or new car, as wing flaps.  These wing flaps control and help land large jetliners.   Push a mental metal button in your mind. Release your wing flaps.  Maybe a set released just under each elbow, and at the side of your knees, redirecting you, stopping the spin. 

Take in a deep breath, and engage your stainless steel will.  Your own atomic centered orbit can be like a gyroscope.


Remember the gyroscope?  We all played with one as a child, or in grade school science class. Without your breath and activated atomic will, you will topple like an inert child’s toy.  But if you energize, pull away the string of life’s entanglements, the new strength you see, may even surprise yourself. You will seem to defy gravity, the heaviness of your situation, as you can now logically begin to plan a way out that seems clear. Your force will raise you up to see solutions, you may have overlooked before.  Do not tire.  Keep pulling away the string of entanglement.  Breathe, though all you may own be lost or torn away, your breath is still your own.  Your will is yours to shine.  Strengthen your steel spine as you define your downward decent, re-angling mindsets, exploring life options, to stop the ‘death spin’.  Your possessions are not the focus.  You cannot save your life or that of children, by grabbing a hold of a TV. The precise changes you need to make will not allow such burdens.  Save yourself first.  Your life is more valuable than things.  Things will come later, when you are free and away from the abuse, in a new home, once you have landed on your feet.  Then smiles will congratulate you, and your bravery. 

Mr. Baumgartner also had a well-trained team talking him through tough times.
Create your team too.

Choose team members you can trust, with your life.  You are in a ‘death spin’.  Create your network.  Keep your earpiece communication lines open with honesty.  Don’t lie or cover up malfunctions.  Your team members need to know what exactly what your situation is.  Felix Baumgartner spoke to his team before he left the safety of a balloon capsule, 34 miles above the earth.  He spoke honestly.  It was Air Force Captain Joe Kittinger’s calm voice that gave Felix his life reminding instructions as he prepared to jump. 


Let your team members have this clearance too.  Let them guide you to safety, away from abuse, towards a safe home, maybe even to further education and a better employment opportunity for yourself, and your children.  Though you may know which tube is for oxygen, patiently listen to each of your team member’s instructions, follow through.  When you are in an abusive situation, you are not thinking clearly.  It’s as if you are miles away from the rest of humanity, trying to solve it all with less oxygen.  Trust your hand-picked team. 

Utilize your resources.  Felix Baumgartner had the Red Bull Stratos Team expertise at his command. 


Build your resources too.   One amazing resource I remember using is a book by
Ginny NiCarthy~Getting Free

Ginny NiCarthy's work is, as described in the first comment under the book’s post, almost a ‘bible’ of reference, without the ‘psycho-babble’. It can be used as a common sense, safe way to heal from domestic abuse, &  GET OUT!


Get the book!  Write in it as she encourages, and feel your will strengthen.  This book is Red Bull Stratos strong for your downward spin.  It will teach you:  the angles you need to adjust in your life, the compensation for the abuse you are enduring, your need to resist your mate and define your every movement, to stop the head over heels feeling, and the loss of life’s control. You can do it! Many of us have, and we wish the same solid, on the ground feeling, for you.  Unlike my lack of professional input, Ms. NiCarthy has countless credentials to help you counter your spin.  Make her part of your Stratos Team!


There is only one question left.

What was Felix Baumgartner able to manipulate or change to redirect his course, to save his life?  What are you able to change or redirect? 

The answer is: only yourself. 

Mr. Baumgartner was not able at the downward decent speed of 843.6 mph change someone’s opinion of himself, nor should that have been even a fleeting concern.  His focus was on his body’s movements, his choices of direction to ensure a safe landing, to walk again free, with oxygen, on the earth.

Your choices should be the same.  In the downward ‘death spin’, you do not have the option to worry about what others think of you.  Remember the consult of your hand-picked team members, your resources of life experience, and follow your focus, your plan to safety.  Many may think as they will of you. That is their right.  It is your right too, to follow a course you feel best, countering an abusive mate’s flux, that has altered life’s balance, and regain solid footing again.  Despite the tongue wagging you may hear along the way, think of the words as clouds, some are beautiful, others-not so much. But clouds nonetheless, and not harmful. (without lightning, anyway!) They are fluffy side notes as you engage your parachute, following new commands, to control your life, you may have never used.  Pull that rip cord! Soon a huge chasm will separate you and your abusive mate.  It will seem as if you left them miles away in the outer stratosphere.  Now, negativity is drifting off alone.  Off to support the dark places it creates, like black holes in it's supporters wounded hearts and minds. 

You though, are able to feel sunshine and the love of your team members, ready to congratulate you for such a brave and mind boggling life achievement!  You've torn yourself from the known but painful, and stepped into the unknown, but soon to be safe.  The spin will stop shortly.  You will stand, and not believe your strength and strong spine.  A dear friend once told me the chasm is deep, but it is only, one step across.  Take the step! 

Take it like Felix Baumgartner did on October 14, 2012. Your date will be historic too!  The day you walked off that tiny ledge of the known, to find your freedom again in the unknown. Your freedom from abuse will soon be history. We will smile, with proud tear filled eyes, as you beam back behind your helmet dome, and then raise it to breathe.  The breath you now and will always control. 

You will add to that list of things you control.  Soon it will be:  where you live, who you call on the phone, how to spend your money, and with whom you wish to spend time.  There may be new freedoms like:  how you wish to style your hair, clothes you choose to wear, a kind new loving way to be intimate and share. 

All will be restored, and healed with your electron strong core will.  Direction will be given through hand-picked team advisors.  These will be the tools at your side, your wing flaps to guide you and make you stronger.

Don’t be surprised as you seem to become larger than life strong, that you will meet with resistance from your abusive mate.  This point in your decent can be critically dangerous.  Utilize your team members for safety. 

Mr. Baumgartner knew he only had 10 minutes of Oxygen. 

He said: ”  you cannot think and come up with decisions while you freefall. It’s just too fast and too overwhelming.”


Seek out professionals and law enforcement to help guide your way.  Your safety is of the utmost importance.  Don’t worry about a car or a big screen TV.  It will not help guide you out of a ‘death spin’.

Here is part of the common sense- pre-jump -check list I remember, and have used from Ginny NiCarthy’s book, Getting Free.

Keep your car keys and phone with you, even when you sleep.

Keep extra clothes, medication, and personal care items for yourself and children, packed in your car. 
This includes extra work clothes. 

Start a secret bank account in your name only.

Save money when you can, (vinegar and water instead of Windex), and bank your extra cash.

Start attending classes to better yourself and income possibilities.  Choose short term certificate programs that ensure employment availability.  The medical field is great.  Hospitals are open 24/7.

Get a job with tuition reimbursement, to keep your career growing stronger with further education.

Watch what is going on around you.  If you feel your cycle of abuse is turning quickly to one that is violent, GET OUT!  Make an excuse, like going for milk and leave!

Your life is more important than possessions.  Do not stay in an abusive relationship, or go back to one for your stuff.  Things can be recovered.  Family mementos are not as important as your life.  An abusive mate may target these things, by being destructive, to control and keep you.

Share your story.  Tell others what is happening in your life.  Do not live a secret life of abuse.  Add trusted advisors to your team.  Let them know where you are at all times. 

Utilize law enforcement when needed.  Many a person has died, (while a police officer sat in a squad car outside), trying to ‘get their stuff’ from the home of an abusive mate.  Make them do their job and go in with you! Protect yourself!   ~see heartbreaking examples in: Next Time She’ll Be Dead by Ann Jones http://www.annjonesonline.com/NextTime.html 

Obtain an order of protection.

Utilize security officers at work, informing them of your order of protection.

Join abuse survivor support groups.  Attend the meetings. Create change/maintain boundaries. Remember you are in a ‘death spin’.  Take care not to take on someone else’s too!

Watch your surroundings, when you are walking to your car or driving in traffic.  Call 911 immediately, even if you are unsure of your safety. 

Keep all your important documents with you, or with a trusted team member.  Don’t go back into an abusive or life threatening situation for a birth certificate or social security card.  Documents can be replaced.  Your life cannot. 

Give yourself permission to make mistakes.  This is the first time you are leaving an abusive relationship.  You may not do everything according to the book, but your team members will help ensure: you get out alive.

Allow yourself to feel sad for the loss of the relationship.  Many a person has stopped the lifesaving process when fed the fumes of guilt or shame.  Don’t succumb to heart strings being pulled by a mate, or the shame a family may impose for divorce or separation.  If reconciliation is a possibility, it can happen after you are safe, and have landed solidly on the ground, after surviving a ‘death spin’.  If not, then move on. 

Remember YOUR Bill of Rights:

BILL OF RIGHTS

· You have the right to be you.

· You have the right to put yourself first.

· You have the right to be safe.

· You have the right to love and be loved.

· You have the right to be treated with respect.

· You have the right to be human - NOT PERFECT.

· You have the right to be angry and protest if you are treated unfairly or abusively by anyone.

· You have the right to your own privacy.

· You have the right to your own opinions, to express them, and to be taken seriously.

· You have the right to earn and control your own money.

· You have the right to ask questions about anything that affects your life.

· You have the right to make decisions that affect you.

· You have the right to grow and change (and that includes changing your mind).

· You have the right to say NO.

· You have the right to make mistakes.

· You have the right NOT to be responsible for other adults’ problems.

· You have the right not to be liked by everyone.

· YOU HAVE THE RIGHT TO CONTROL YOUR OWN LIFE AND TO CHANGE IT IF   YOU ARE NOT HAPPY WITH IT AS IT IS.


And please, above all, know YOU are loved, for who you are, as a member of a world family.
The resources available to you, earned from the hard work and tears of ones before you, yes, ~even loss of life, are invaluable.  Use them! Be safe, and start your life:

                                                SPINNING IN CONTROL!






                                                                     





  




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